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I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty
Ebel Yong
22years old
1.7m, 52kg
17th Jan 1987[Birthday]
4th June 2006[Spiritual]
Believes that waiting will creates miracle
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty
{/profile --
ramblings of a young adult
Ebel Yong
22years old
1.7m, 52kg
17th Jan 1987[Birthday]
4th June 2006[Spiritual]
Believes that waiting will creates miracle
Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty
Am I suay or what? Seriously, I think I'm really down with luck. Lets see..
1st day, ladder fall and hit my right leg. Seriously, a big blue-black is there. And on 2nd day, I stand up and hit the edge of the table, and I hut my back, with a scar. 3rd day, while opening the shop, my finger stuck at the door, and there's a deep cut. 4th day, while buffering my nails, I cut my skin, and left with a scar. AND GUESS WHAT ABOUT TODAY!? While taking the stocks, tons of clothing hit my head. Ouch.
So can anyone tell me did I step to "dirty" things or am I just down with luck? Sigh. Elina say it will happen the most 3days, but right now its continous 5days! Oh man, wass up with tomorrow? Sigh.
Anyway, transfer list out! I'm out of the place when I am right now! And I'M HAPPY CAN!? Going to the place where I've so much memories. Aww.. I'm thankful about the transfer, but I'm not going back to 1st, but still stuck at 2nd. But I'm glad! Can get rid of SM! Which I'm veryyyyy HAPPY! And, I hope I will lead a better life down there. (: Praise the Lord!
This is taken from J's blog. Well, I think its true, and I agree on that. The purpose why he wrote that is because he's a dark-side artist. Hmmm..
As most of you whom already knew me or have been following my site closely, you would have realized that I am rather a 'dark' artist and I have always been morbidly fascinated by a lot of things in a dark fashion. Anyway, I am not the main topic of today.
Well, since Steph needed some help regarding her project so I guess I will provide some help for her? So here I am, presenting to all my viewers an article about depression. Hopefully, it could prove useful to her in some ways. Many a time, people assume or question the owner of this site itself. Is the author himself seriously depressed or he just hates the world? Or maybe life has been very unfair to him in one way or another.
A friend of mine once suggested a very interesting theory. She said that the author behind this pitch dark cyberspace would perhaps be a fat, ugly and heartbroken guy whom felt the world had gave up on him. No offend against any overweight guys please. I am just quoting her directly. It is an interesting theory I thought but nevertheless a stereotype theory though. Why is it that fat and ugly people are associated with depression? Does it means when you are not physically inclined or superficially beautiful, the world will not readily accept you? So what is it? The world has no penitence for less good looking people; less fortunate people? She's not in the wrong too, mind you. The world has not been quite a nice place lately.
It's not because life has been unfair to me or anything , I do my art the way it is because I feel that since I could present to you reality I would. Having met and known a lot of depressed people in my life, minor or major ones, I guess there is no one else in a better position to write this. The only thing is, I didn't go through depression myself.
So let's start with why people get depressed shall we? The way I see it, people get depressed because of various reasons. We shall look at the 3 main types. Firstly, self-blame. People tend to blame themselves when they did wrong but depressed people never get out of this. They stay the same way for days, blaming and laying the guilt on themselves. Secondly, it's self-pity. Those whom have made mistakes and were treated unfairly in their workplace will indulge in this behavior. They will tend to pity themselves in such situation and will not attempt to make it any better, they just keep telling themselves it's such a pity, such sorrow and they never get better. Eventually, they ended up depressed. Lastly, it's the pity-others. These people are usually very emotional and feel a lot towards others. Take for instance, a beggar on the streets. This person will feel a lot towards his state, he will keep thinking about the miseries the beggar went through and began a series of morbid thoughts which eventually depressed the person deeply.
I must say that not all depressions starts with relationships issues but it's usually somehow involved in it. Though, what I have covered is not ALL of the reasons why people get depressed but it's the few main reasons. Here's the breakdown of the no. of depressed people in the states.
Seven to 12 per cent of men suffer from diagnosable depression, and 20 to 25 per cent of women.
There are many theories as to why the figure is higher for women.
The incidence of postnatal depression certainly contributes to the higher figure.
Let's just go straight in teens depression then.
Each year 500,000 young adults, aged 15 to 25, attempt suicide.
Each year 5,000 young adults succeed.
Suicide is the third leading cause of death among 15 to 25 year olds.
Without treatment, of those who attempt suicide, 80 percent are likely to try again.
Teen depression almost always leads to suicidal thoughts.
Facts taken from bbc-health.com
With all these in mind, you will want to know what are the symptoms of depression won't you?
Traumatic events or changes in your life (an abusive parent, divorce, death of a loved one, or breaking up with a longtime girlfriend or boyfriend, for example)
Difficult coping with your anger
Prblems in school lifestyle changes such as weight loss, weight gain, or difficulty sleeping a desire to drink alcohol or use drugs an interest in violence or a growing fear of violence.
To put it in layman terms, the moment suicide thoughts such as cutting yourself up or jumping down the block will means serious depression and you will need to seek help.
If I will to go on, this will turn out to be a scientific report more than an article. I will not go into the means of curing depression. The reason I am doing this article is to bring awareness that depression is around you and that it is not a normal reaction like anger or jealousy. It is a ILLINESS. After reading so much of what I have wrote, I believe you do know about depression in a way or another. So, at the end of the day, if you found out that you belong somewhere in this article, please go seek help. This is all I can do for you. Thank you for reading.
Just another clubbing session.
Went Momo. Saw a couple of regulars there. People like YiHan, Justina and Bing Bing. To my surprise I saw Winnie and Alan. I've no idea why the music yesterday was like old Reggae and old R&B. But afterall, its nice.
Its just another day staying at home, AND I'M FREAKING BORED NOW! Gonna pack my room. Sigh.
I'm down with FLU & SORE THROAT. Argh..
Something nice to share. Enjoy.
A few things happen yesterday. Hmmm.. Some funny stuffs, in fact, some are not.
1) I wore a dress out yesterday.
I guess my friends be like laughing themselves out right now. And yeah, I wore a dress. I will upload the photo when I have the time.
2) Funny thing that I've encounter while I was on my way to Bugis. Was on the train with Ben. It's peak hour, alot of people. When we reach Bugis, I just make fun and said: "Walk faster leh."
Ben: "I'm trying to." With a real calm tone of voice.
Stranger that blocking us. "I'm sorry."
When we get out of the cabin, both of us were laughing out loud. Seriously, this is the first time I've encounter this thing.
3) After having dinner, we head down to S&K. I'm surprise that Joanne, Jason & Kelvin can't recongise me. I guess. They are shock. Like what Jason said, totally can't recongise me.
4) On the way home, there's this drunken, sitting down and start "niam-ing" about this couple. About "Hey young people, I pay the same fare as you. Why you wanna do this type of things at the public? And if you wanna make love, go and get cheap hotel room lah."
If that happen to be, I swear I will whack him. And yeah, that happen to me. But I'm surprise I'm not angry at all. Cause he's drunk. And why should I give a damn about people who doesn't know what they're talking. Oh whatever.
Seriously, that's a big insult. But right now, I don't even care.
Argh, gonna be late again. Update sooon.. Just in case I didn't MERRY CHRISTMAS in advace.
If I knew all this
Was just a pack of lies
FOrever buried in the ground
I hope it lies
Not asking you to stay with me
Leave me not is what I wish
Normal friends we become
Forever like this it will remain
If you can't see that
I'm hurting badly
Now dear, look at me
What you did was not action of a hero
Cause all that you've left was sorrow
I'm not sharing your point of view
I know alot of girls are waiting
At your queue
But let me say out loud and clear
Slashed into my heart
Is a sharp glass spear
One that cannot be taken out
Without leaving it out in tears
Things done cannot be undone
In this darkness, may there be sun
Smiles you've bought alone with frons
How I wish we never had began
-eBeL
Should I? Should I not? Thoughts been running around. Should I give up everything that I have right now?
Been thinking alot recently, should I resign my job? Alot of people been saying: "Its not easy to get the position right now, why you wanna give up?" And seriously, I don't know why, I wanna give up. Maybe because.. I'm really too bored with it. And I really want to enjoy.
I'm only 19(though I'm close to 20) I've been struggling thru-out. And I'm really tired with it. I really need a break. I'm hoping that my leave will approve. I really want a break. Sigh. I don't know.
Mostly be quiting after Feb. And mostly Chinese New Year Eve will be the last day. After that, might be going for studies. And mostly, get a part time job to earn money at the same time. Where should I be working, I've no idea. Maybe stay in the company as part timer, if not, be going other places. More-over, right now, its still Dec.
Ben be leaving Singapore on 17th Feb 06' for 10months. I'm still wondering this 10months, how am I suppose to kill the time. And I wonder how things will work out 10months later? Right now, cherish everything I have right now..
and girl you know it's gon' be lovely.
i cannot pretend, i just wanna spend more time with you lovely.
the way you keep it tight, you know just what i like, you know it's gon' be lovely.
and nothing i won't give, to show you i'm for real.
i got you feeling so good all inside. tonight is all about you.
There's nothing really nice to be blogging about. Alot of people read, but alot of people left. A few new people whom read this, a few regulars that left. I'm having a shit of my life when you remind me that I was transfer.
Tears starts to roll down again. I'm not trying to say that its a bad thing to transfer, either do I mean that the new outlet sucks. (It sucks when you have to wake up much more earlier and close late.) But other then this everytime thing seems fine. I guess.
How would you feel when people start to talk about you when you doesn't even know them that well? How would you feel when someone being so dear to you start to talk bad about you? How would you feel when your love one start to drift apart with you? How would you feel.. When you know that you've being demoted?
This is how I feel right now. I really wanna get over it, and start brand new again.. I'm sick and tired of my life. (But I'm glad that someone stood by my side to accompany me throughout the darkest life.) Life is never easy for me, why am I facing all these shit at the age of 19?
Can't even claim the fcuking OTs whereby manpower is so tight, especially incharge. All the fcuk you want is ZERO OTs, cut cost, save manpower, save this, and save that. Sometimes I just feel that OTs is something that we really deserve, especially at this new outlet.
What's worst is that my leave for my birthday is NOT approve. Yes again. Hello? I understand if you don't let me clear because I'm a 1st back in Suntec, but right now, I'm just a normal senior that run that shop. To others, and yes to me, I'm just a freaking supporting senior. In other words, I'm 3rd.
Somehow, it does hurt me. But right now, it doesn't really bother me anymore. Cause I ain't gonna give any fcuking care about it. I just wanna get over, start a freaking new life and move on. Forget about whatever shits that happen right now. Cause I know...
...
...
...
Life still moves on.
I aint gonna care that much anymore. And don't expect me to give the company as much commitment as before.
I'm very wear out. Mentally, and physically. Seriously, working at the new outlet simply sucks. Morning shift for weekday have to sign in at 930am, and for weekend is another killer. 9am. Argh..
Tomorrow freaking SM, whereby I'm not involve! I DONT WANNA GO!!
Just recover from a 3 days MC. Seriously, was real bad. Was under high fever for like 38degree. And Ben being really sweet. Came all the way from CCK to Pasir Ris just to accomapany me to the doctor.
Number was 93, but when I register, the number was only 82. Its hell long for me to wait. But thankful enough that we went down to have breakfast. By the time we came up, was like 92. Lucky, only a few moments of waiting.
Took medicine, and rest the entire day. Thursday was on MC too. Rested at home, and seriously, Ben being sweet. Cam all the way again, just to buy me lunch. I guess he's a little out of mind. HAHA. Anyway, he rented me VCD, and I watch it throughout the day. Elina came down to watch it with me too. Cause both of us are like hell bored.
Friday was my off day. Met up with Edna. Its been long since I catch up with Queensfield peeps. Its like.. Hmmm.. No idea? Anyway, its fun. And I'm really enjoy myself with her. (: WE PROMISE TO MEET AGAIN EDNA!?
Saturday.. Its a bad day.. Dull day.. Its the day whereby the suckest day of my life. A big setback. I dont even know what the $^&(#$&*@# I've done wrong and you're transfering me out? ARgh. I thought its YOU gonna be the one out, why me? I believe someone out there being playing some fcuk up thing there. fcuk bitch.
Sunday, 1/2M today. Went to WOODLANDS. Its far can? To Chee Siang's house. Chloe's 1year old. She's cute please. Meet up with Ben, check Novena out. It's good to know people from Flash & Splash. I got a stussy jacket for freaking 1/2price. HAHA! Damn cool please. (:
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty
{/ --
Saturday, December 30, 2006 ( 12/30/2006 01:03:00 AM )
Am I suay or what? Seriously, I think I'm really down with luck. Lets see..
1st day, ladder fall and hit my right leg. Seriously, a big blue-black is there. And on 2nd day, I stand up and hit the edge of the table, and I hut my back, with a scar. 3rd day, while opening the shop, my finger stuck at the door, and there's a deep cut. 4th day, while buffering my nails, I cut my skin, and left with a scar. AND GUESS WHAT ABOUT TODAY!? While taking the stocks, tons of clothing hit my head. Ouch.
So can anyone tell me did I step to "dirty" things or am I just down with luck? Sigh. Elina say it will happen the most 3days, but right now its continous 5days! Oh man, wass up with tomorrow? Sigh.
Anyway, transfer list out! I'm out of the place when I am right now! And I'M HAPPY CAN!? Going to the place where I've so much memories. Aww.. I'm thankful about the transfer, but I'm not going back to 1st, but still stuck at 2nd. But I'm glad! Can get rid of SM! Which I'm veryyyyy HAPPY! And, I hope I will lead a better life down there. (: Praise the Lord!
This is taken from J's blog. Well, I think its true, and I agree on that. The purpose why he wrote that is because he's a dark-side artist. Hmmm..
As most of you whom already knew me or have been following my site closely, you would have realized that I am rather a 'dark' artist and I have always been morbidly fascinated by a lot of things in a dark fashion. Anyway, I am not the main topic of today.
Well, since Steph needed some help regarding her project so I guess I will provide some help for her? So here I am, presenting to all my viewers an article about depression. Hopefully, it could prove useful to her in some ways. Many a time, people assume or question the owner of this site itself. Is the author himself seriously depressed or he just hates the world? Or maybe life has been very unfair to him in one way or another.
A friend of mine once suggested a very interesting theory. She said that the author behind this pitch dark cyberspace would perhaps be a fat, ugly and heartbroken guy whom felt the world had gave up on him. No offend against any overweight guys please. I am just quoting her directly. It is an interesting theory I thought but nevertheless a stereotype theory though. Why is it that fat and ugly people are associated with depression? Does it means when you are not physically inclined or superficially beautiful, the world will not readily accept you? So what is it? The world has no penitence for less good looking people; less fortunate people? She's not in the wrong too, mind you. The world has not been quite a nice place lately.
It's not because life has been unfair to me or anything , I do my art the way it is because I feel that since I could present to you reality I would. Having met and known a lot of depressed people in my life, minor or major ones, I guess there is no one else in a better position to write this. The only thing is, I didn't go through depression myself.
So let's start with why people get depressed shall we? The way I see it, people get depressed because of various reasons. We shall look at the 3 main types. Firstly, self-blame. People tend to blame themselves when they did wrong but depressed people never get out of this. They stay the same way for days, blaming and laying the guilt on themselves. Secondly, it's self-pity. Those whom have made mistakes and were treated unfairly in their workplace will indulge in this behavior. They will tend to pity themselves in such situation and will not attempt to make it any better, they just keep telling themselves it's such a pity, such sorrow and they never get better. Eventually, they ended up depressed. Lastly, it's the pity-others. These people are usually very emotional and feel a lot towards others. Take for instance, a beggar on the streets. This person will feel a lot towards his state, he will keep thinking about the miseries the beggar went through and began a series of morbid thoughts which eventually depressed the person deeply.
I must say that not all depressions starts with relationships issues but it's usually somehow involved in it. Though, what I have covered is not ALL of the reasons why people get depressed but it's the few main reasons. Here's the breakdown of the no. of depressed people in the states.
Seven to 12 per cent of men suffer from diagnosable depression, and 20 to 25 per cent of women.
There are many theories as to why the figure is higher for women.
The incidence of postnatal depression certainly contributes to the higher figure.
Let's just go straight in teens depression then.
Each year 500,000 young adults, aged 15 to 25, attempt suicide.
Each year 5,000 young adults succeed.
Suicide is the third leading cause of death among 15 to 25 year olds.
Without treatment, of those who attempt suicide, 80 percent are likely to try again.
Teen depression almost always leads to suicidal thoughts.
Facts taken from bbc-health.com
With all these in mind, you will want to know what are the symptoms of depression won't you?
Traumatic events or changes in your life (an abusive parent, divorce, death of a loved one, or breaking up with a longtime girlfriend or boyfriend, for example)
Difficult coping with your anger
Prblems in school lifestyle changes such as weight loss, weight gain, or difficulty sleeping a desire to drink alcohol or use drugs an interest in violence or a growing fear of violence.
To put it in layman terms, the moment suicide thoughts such as cutting yourself up or jumping down the block will means serious depression and you will need to seek help.
If I will to go on, this will turn out to be a scientific report more than an article. I will not go into the means of curing depression. The reason I am doing this article is to bring awareness that depression is around you and that it is not a normal reaction like anger or jealousy. It is a ILLINESS. After reading so much of what I have wrote, I believe you do know about depression in a way or another. So, at the end of the day, if you found out that you belong somewhere in this article, please go seek help. This is all I can do for you. Thank you for reading.
{/ --
Thursday, December 28, 2006 ( 12/28/2006 04:51:00 PM )
Just another clubbing session.
Went Momo. Saw a couple of regulars there. People like YiHan, Justina and Bing Bing. To my surprise I saw Winnie and Alan. I've no idea why the music yesterday was like old Reggae and old R&B. But afterall, its nice.
Its just another day staying at home, AND I'M FREAKING BORED NOW! Gonna pack my room. Sigh.
I'm down with FLU & SORE THROAT. Argh..
{/ --
Saturday, December 23, 2006 ( 12/23/2006 01:43:00 AM )
Something nice to share. Enjoy.
{/ --
Friday, December 22, 2006 ( 12/22/2006 10:50:00 AM )
A few things happen yesterday. Hmmm.. Some funny stuffs, in fact, some are not.
1) I wore a dress out yesterday.
I guess my friends be like laughing themselves out right now. And yeah, I wore a dress. I will upload the photo when I have the time.
2) Funny thing that I've encounter while I was on my way to Bugis. Was on the train with Ben. It's peak hour, alot of people. When we reach Bugis, I just make fun and said: "Walk faster leh."
Ben: "I'm trying to." With a real calm tone of voice.
Stranger that blocking us. "I'm sorry."
When we get out of the cabin, both of us were laughing out loud. Seriously, this is the first time I've encounter this thing.
3) After having dinner, we head down to S&K. I'm surprise that Joanne, Jason & Kelvin can't recongise me. I guess. They are shock. Like what Jason said, totally can't recongise me.
4) On the way home, there's this drunken, sitting down and start "niam-ing" about this couple. About "Hey young people, I pay the same fare as you. Why you wanna do this type of things at the public? And if you wanna make love, go and get cheap hotel room lah."
If that happen to be, I swear I will whack him. And yeah, that happen to me. But I'm surprise I'm not angry at all. Cause he's drunk. And why should I give a damn about people who doesn't know what they're talking. Oh whatever.
Seriously, that's a big insult. But right now, I don't even care.
Argh, gonna be late again. Update sooon.. Just in case I didn't MERRY CHRISTMAS in advace.
{/ --
Thursday, December 21, 2006 ( 12/21/2006 02:17:00 PM )
If I knew all this
Was just a pack of lies
FOrever buried in the ground
I hope it lies
Not asking you to stay with me
Leave me not is what I wish
Normal friends we become
Forever like this it will remain
If you can't see that
I'm hurting badly
Now dear, look at me
What you did was not action of a hero
Cause all that you've left was sorrow
I'm not sharing your point of view
I know alot of girls are waiting
At your queue
But let me say out loud and clear
Slashed into my heart
Is a sharp glass spear
One that cannot be taken out
Without leaving it out in tears
Things done cannot be undone
In this darkness, may there be sun
Smiles you've bought alone with frons
How I wish we never had began
-eBeL
{/ --
Wednesday, December 20, 2006 ( 12/20/2006 09:29:00 PM )
Should I? Should I not? Thoughts been running around. Should I give up everything that I have right now?
Been thinking alot recently, should I resign my job? Alot of people been saying: "Its not easy to get the position right now, why you wanna give up?" And seriously, I don't know why, I wanna give up. Maybe because.. I'm really too bored with it. And I really want to enjoy.
I'm only 19(though I'm close to 20) I've been struggling thru-out. And I'm really tired with it. I really need a break. I'm hoping that my leave will approve. I really want a break. Sigh. I don't know.
Mostly be quiting after Feb. And mostly Chinese New Year Eve will be the last day. After that, might be going for studies. And mostly, get a part time job to earn money at the same time. Where should I be working, I've no idea. Maybe stay in the company as part timer, if not, be going other places. More-over, right now, its still Dec.
Ben be leaving Singapore on 17th Feb 06' for 10months. I'm still wondering this 10months, how am I suppose to kill the time. And I wonder how things will work out 10months later? Right now, cherish everything I have right now..
and girl you know it's gon' be lovely.
i cannot pretend, i just wanna spend more time with you lovely.
the way you keep it tight, you know just what i like, you know it's gon' be lovely.
and nothing i won't give, to show you i'm for real.
i got you feeling so good all inside. tonight is all about you.
{/ --
Thursday, December 14, 2006 ( 12/14/2006 12:40:00 PM )
There's nothing really nice to be blogging about. Alot of people read, but alot of people left. A few new people whom read this, a few regulars that left. I'm having a shit of my life when you remind me that I was transfer.
Tears starts to roll down again. I'm not trying to say that its a bad thing to transfer, either do I mean that the new outlet sucks. (It sucks when you have to wake up much more earlier and close late.) But other then this everytime thing seems fine. I guess.
How would you feel when people start to talk about you when you doesn't even know them that well? How would you feel when someone being so dear to you start to talk bad about you? How would you feel when your love one start to drift apart with you? How would you feel.. When you know that you've being demoted?
This is how I feel right now. I really wanna get over it, and start brand new again.. I'm sick and tired of my life. (But I'm glad that someone stood by my side to accompany me throughout the darkest life.) Life is never easy for me, why am I facing all these shit at the age of 19?
Can't even claim the fcuking OTs whereby manpower is so tight, especially incharge. All the fcuk you want is ZERO OTs, cut cost, save manpower, save this, and save that. Sometimes I just feel that OTs is something that we really deserve, especially at this new outlet.
What's worst is that my leave for my birthday is NOT approve. Yes again. Hello? I understand if you don't let me clear because I'm a 1st back in Suntec, but right now, I'm just a normal senior that run that shop. To others, and yes to me, I'm just a freaking supporting senior. In other words, I'm 3rd.
Somehow, it does hurt me. But right now, it doesn't really bother me anymore. Cause I ain't gonna give any fcuking care about it. I just wanna get over, start a freaking new life and move on. Forget about whatever shits that happen right now. Cause I know...
...
...
...
Life still moves on.
I aint gonna care that much anymore. And don't expect me to give the company as much commitment as before.
{/ --
Monday, December 11, 2006 ( 12/11/2006 11:30:00 PM )
I'm very wear out. Mentally, and physically. Seriously, working at the new outlet simply sucks. Morning shift for weekday have to sign in at 930am, and for weekend is another killer. 9am. Argh..
Tomorrow freaking SM, whereby I'm not involve! I DONT WANNA GO!!
{/ --
Monday, December 04, 2006 ( 12/04/2006 12:38:00 AM )
Just recover from a 3 days MC. Seriously, was real bad. Was under high fever for like 38degree. And Ben being really sweet. Came all the way from CCK to Pasir Ris just to accomapany me to the doctor.
Number was 93, but when I register, the number was only 82. Its hell long for me to wait. But thankful enough that we went down to have breakfast. By the time we came up, was like 92. Lucky, only a few moments of waiting.
Took medicine, and rest the entire day. Thursday was on MC too. Rested at home, and seriously, Ben being sweet. Cam all the way again, just to buy me lunch. I guess he's a little out of mind. HAHA. Anyway, he rented me VCD, and I watch it throughout the day. Elina came down to watch it with me too. Cause both of us are like hell bored.
Friday was my off day. Met up with Edna. Its been long since I catch up with Queensfield peeps. Its like.. Hmmm.. No idea? Anyway, its fun. And I'm really enjoy myself with her. (: WE PROMISE TO MEET AGAIN EDNA!?
Saturday.. Its a bad day.. Dull day.. Its the day whereby the suckest day of my life. A big setback. I dont even know what the $^&(#$&*@# I've done wrong and you're transfering me out? ARgh. I thought its YOU gonna be the one out, why me? I believe someone out there being playing some fcuk up thing there. fcuk bitch.
Sunday, 1/2M today. Went to WOODLANDS. Its far can? To Chee Siang's house. Chloe's 1year old. She's cute please. Meet up with Ben, check Novena out. It's good to know people from Flash & Splash. I got a stussy jacket for freaking 1/2price. HAHA! Damn cool please. (:
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Is beating our hearts; We're Empty
now playing
周杰伦 - 说好的幸福呢
你的回话凌乱着 在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽 甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯 我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌 假装没事了
时间过了 走了 爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
离开时的不快乐 你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
(我都还记得)
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不等了
说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了
放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢
Is beating our hearts; We're Empty
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now playing
周杰伦 - 说好的幸福呢
你的回话凌乱着 在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽 甜蜜散落了
情绪莫名的拉扯 我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌 假装没事了
时间过了 走了 爱情面临选择
你冷了 倦了 我哭了
离开时的不快乐 你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这真的痛了
怎么了 你累了
说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了
爱淡了 梦远了
(我都还记得)
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不等了
说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了
放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢